We're getting ready to leave for our trip to Maui and I'm not as freaked out as last time. Last time we flew to Hawaii, I was so stressed out and nervous that I was actually vomiting in the airplane bathroom most of the flight. It was all due to some weird mind trip I threw myself on. I was never afraid or nervous about flying, I had 5 other adults to watch my kids and play with them, I knew where I was going... but still. I freaked myself out and had a panic attack in an airplane over the Pacific Ocean. A few months ago I flew to Denver all by myself and had a wonderful successful trip. Now, I'm flying to Maui. I can do it. I don't have to be scared. I have everything I need and I can't wait to land.
Twisted Willow Traditions
Ever changing space for topics I feel. Weaving, alternative education, my awesome kids, spinning wool, self love, tarot... Everything.
4.16.2016
4.01.2016
Change, or Moral of the Story: Feel the Bern
So much has changed in my life lately, without hardly changing at all. I still live in the downstairs bedroom of my parents house, I still drive my high school car, I still don't like to go anywhere unless it happens to be with people I absolutely love. But those are just surface details. I can feel my self changing, I've been learning so much about my craft. I'm almost confidant enough in my self to actually call my self an artist. I've been learning new tools and techniques, color theory, weave structures, I even got the larger of my looms, the Sanjo 8 harness, moved into the house! But more than that, I've been learning a lot about humans. I've been reading and browsing a lot on race relations and gender identity. There is so much anger and misunderstanding in this world, it feels like the only thing I can do is gather as many perspectives as I can and sort out the gentle, peace-filled ones, and add my own to the pile. The world is a beautiful place, and it is filled with people who do scary things. I hold onto the hope that the love other folks have for the world will spread just like the anger, and as it infects me I will pass it on to the next person. Like the zombie virus.
I took this picture after a glorious old woman in a 15 year old hand knit sweater told me I "look very poetic." I felt her words in my bones. |
I think one of the major changes in my life has been accepting that this is who I am and not even I can change it. So I'm not perfect, but there is a lot of love and life in my soul to share, it's time to stop getting in my own way.
7.07.2015
One Woman's Gathering.
I had the most amazing walk this afternoon. A dear friend took the kids to the movies and I walked the ocean. I parked at my favorite trail head and walked to Virgin Creek to watch the surfers. Mariee Sioux in one ear and the bird song and gentle pounding of Mama Ocean in the other. I sat and listened to her voice for a long while, her music speaks to my soul in such a deep feeling way. I took out the music and listens to ocean and sent my roots deep down into Mama Earth and my branches and leaves as far up into The Sky as they could go. We exist in the middle place between Sky and Earth, a sacred place. I could hear it singing to my heart. I kept listening in one ear to Mariee and one ear to the ocean and walked back along the wave line, my feet soaking in the waves, my skirt tied and untying in each new surge. I walked back to my car bare foot and felt the Earth under me. Getting back into my car and finishing my errands has been like floating. I had just been dancing in the waves and woods and now I'm in Safeway dealing with banking shit.
It is such an amazing blessing to live in this amazing, beautiful, sacred place. I am honored to call this place my home.
3.26.2015
Flowers
She helped my mom put together this glorious arrangement of spring flowers all found in the area around our home.
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3.14.2015
3.13.2015
4.15.2014
More Twisted Willow Fiber...
I've been selling handspun yarn at the Mendocino Yarn Shop and I'm going to be teach my first drop spindle class there! I'm still reluctant to post more things to etsy, my camera phone simply doesn't capture the colors well enough. I'm calling my yarn Twisted Willow Fiberworks, and I've changed my blog address accordingly. I'm really nervous about teaching a class, but it'll be fun. Here are some pictures of some yarn.
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